Sunday, May 1, 2022

My Own Music History #2

So...what went so wrong, so dark?

Who's to say the darkness hasn't reached everyone?

Once upon a time I told tales of how we were pioneers of a new era. Now that the new era has dawned, I still fear judgment — having been severely judged in my memory of how things were.

The Drug War has been the major unaddressed political war, shadowing all others, in the US, for over 50 years – at least in mainstream parlance. The real movenent began with temperance as political activism. That was unsustainable to the public at large and the greater welfare of a nation, to the extent of having to amend and re-amend the US Constitution.

I fathom the unfortunate turn of events in that era only served to persecute, demonize, and ultimately prosecute that which had been just fine before, and just fine after — were it not for the urgency to falsely pursue, demonize, perpetrate, and expand the thought process eventually into "drugs".

Does society crave false dichotomy? It's okay...as long as you don't get caught. Nowadays that thought process will not be assuaged by blatant disinformation. 

But back to my tale. I was a wanton mess after '94...only to have been incidentally and suddenly visited by this guy named Michael. I had not seen this man in 4 years. 

That guy is an underrated force of coolness of that entire era. 

He happened upon my doorstep just upon a single day after I lost my job, as I sat - scraping my paltry tray. In hospitality, I gladly scraped whatever I could as to situate a doober for this glorious reunion.

We had met before. As Tom, no doubt, has evidently underwriten my whole life, I'll point out that Tom introduced me to Carl and Michael in 1987- both housemates at the time...each with his particular penchant. More later, I hope. 

There was a guy named Adam, whom I met in high school, that was also involved during the time. Others who come into play.

Many of my friends turned to the darker side of drugs. Oh hey – I went along far darker than I dared, but could not ever bring myself to exist there but for a moment before needing to be away from the nature of the fiend mentality.

...but, I saw the results of not having been pulled in their directions...many were pulled to Seattle. Oh, for the wont of a messiah character. More on that..

So, Michael showed up that day with 4 friends and I had enough herb for one doober — then they were gone.

I had no herb, no money, and no job.

But...I had a passport! That became important shortly thereafter. More on that.

The next day, Michael visited me in the morning by himself. Thank goodness, because I was out of pot.

It was all a part of "our nefarious history" adventures that led to us being pioneers and political prisoners-of-war in the days of marijuana legalization. 

It was definitely a different West than the Old West.

Except when we shot our way out of a Mexican prison. Totally kidding. That didn't happen. 😁

More next time!

Wednesday, February 16, 2022

My Own Music History #1 - Memory

History is something I've been fascinated by since a young age. As a child, I was given encyclopedias to play with. What fun I had!

As the first child, and within circumstances created as strange yet portrayed as normal, I was inundated with early trauma. This endowed me with hyperthymesia which are instances of time recalled in episodic memory. For example, my first memories are of being a baby – and not foggy, partial remembrances, but moments in time I re-experience in vivid clarity.

What comedian recently came out with a similar "affliction"? I too memorized US Presidential history. My parents used me as a party favor from the age of 8. Right. And the Greatest Generation found me quite useful for crossword puzzles. I have a lot of stories about this. Maybe I'll have a chance to go into it.

My memories of events can be like re-living it all. I think of a moment of a time of life I experience, and I can place myself there mentally with a clarity that is disconcerting to others. To a degree, in transgressing the always-changing culural norms, this served to my benefit. I could relate on a multi-generational understanding that many my age, and since, just cannot.

It is, however, a curse. 

Monday, July 19, 2021

temporal displacement

 Sometimes my posts can serve as something of a diary, with the dates out of sequence. The same thing holds true about my studio releases. I had been a songwriter for decades prior to producing or releasing anything, with many songs written long ago that are now brand new.

Information is like that. Even if it's ancient history, it's brand new information upon its discovery. New information? Mostly that hindsight can lend greater perspective. The old adage "hindsight is 20/20" is not really true; because, some will pick apart the past unto false narratives.

Because people experience time in such a linear way, it's so very common to put boundaries within certain states of being. We exist societally in a certain way, unto a certain point, and then that moment passes unto the next. I know many people are beginning to question this way of being. Are stages or levels really appropriate in all circumstances?

Perhaps, as long as vastly differing levels of intelligences exist, this mustneeds be so. Not so, however, that human compassion should be so limited as to negate humanity's well-being on a larger scale -- nor limited by humans by way of algorithms and "all-the-buzz" of AI.

Be gentle, o' masters of the maths...and I mean those yet to come. Those now postulate upon a flash, indicating nothing. 


Thursday, July 15, 2021

a consideration

Before
Addressing someone in jocularity
In terms that could be misconstrued
And therefore cause offense,
Consider first
That person's disposition.




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All Rights Reserved

Sunday, July 4, 2021

Wane #02

Beware
The individual who will hinder you
Due to self-fear.

It is low-minded, but far too common.


JRA
06/30/21


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Wane #01

To deliberately push someone emotionally
In order to achieve your own results from doing so
Is an exercise in evil.







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Wednesday, June 9, 2021

An Essay - From Horseshit to Atom-Split

 The era of the woke, the heightened political correctness...and the cancel culture? How do human beings collectively view information?

For me, the reasons concern attributes of our species which make me question everything about technology; not that anything in and of itself is intrinsically bad, per se. This sentiment will boil down to capability and potentiality. Human beings seem to be fairly base creatures still, wholly incapable of the technology we wield collectively. Really. My great-grandparents lived similarly to how the Amish live — born in a time before public utilities were even widespread. So, oil-lamps, candles, horses, wells, trash-burning, burning wood and coal, and outhouses were all normal parts of everyday life.

Speaking of narrative, there is this conspiratorial notion that something extra-terrestrial happened in New Mexico in 1947. The story goes in many different tangents depending on where you look, but it pertains to this collective idea that 1) advanced alien civilizations have visited earth; 2) an alien spacecraft, possibly occupied, crash-landed on Earth in New Mexico in 1947; 3) the controlling forces of our globe — whether governmental or corporate (or both) have reversed engineered this technology from said craft; 4) the controlling forces of our globe hide all of this from the rest of the population for profit.

I look at this with story with great curiosity, perhaps like many others in the last 75 years — except there are very strange attributes to this tale. Why does this narrative even exist? Why does it fascinate the public to the degree that many would argue this as factual?

Information is something more significant than is commonly realized. It influences relative time. If only small amounts of information are allowed to permeate collective consciousness, the collective fills in the blanks. I would surmise that this is a deliberate exercise by those who can control information. Like a dystopian Mad Libs, the blanks become filled with nonsense and suddenly all sorts of paranoid delusions are borne throughout time  viewed as fact. I can't go so far as to postulate this attribute as the beginnings of religion itself directly; however it is not beyond the realm of speculation.

The reason I bring up the Roswell postulation is not only as an example of what may be some sort of weird collective delusion, or perhaps that we only have a smattering of the information and the rest has been convoluted around it  but, also to serve as a point of inquiry in regards to our present state as a society on a planetary scale. Sometimes, information is given incorrectly on purpose in order to mislead. This can be done for economic, ideological, or philosophical purposes. 

For example, imagine that rather than an alien craft having crash landed in Roswell, NM in 1947 that, if there's any truth at all to any of it, it happened much earlier than that. Perhaps it is more reasonable to fathom that this happened in 1847 instead. This is something that I am addressing without researching every term about which I write. How could I? Yes, there is a lot of reference material, but look at what we're referencing. It is something that, as of this writing, has not been officially acknowledged as fact. If we look at the technological development of our species, for example, humanity has stayed amazingly consistent in primitive ways of living right up until the American Civil War. Granted, there were developments before that too that seem extremely pivotal — but not as frequent nor monumentally so as the succession of innovations surrounding the turn of the 20th century. If we think in terms of information, obviously the printing press was huge but had been around for centuries by the time of the Industrial Revolution. The steam engine and the telegraph really ushered in a time where information could be more greatly manipulated as bits of it could be released faster. History is written, oftentimes incorrectly, after the fact. This brought the level of narrative to a national scale — really the beginnings of a global scale. What was next? Human beings are dirty, ignorant, base creatures, but still capable of great imaginings. People can be fairly smart sometimes, in very small numbers. The cotton gin, the printing press, the steam engine...these are things that are not beyond reason to speculate — that humans had come up with this technology. Whether true or not, this is philosophical speculation based on commonly-known things, if any of it had bases to begin with. When we get to things like electricity in every home, the telegraph and the telephone...ok, also not beyond human intelligence perhaps. However, there was a lot more going on too. The photograph and phonograph too? Information could be sent instantaneously via telegraph, which really would have been the first internet structure. The automobile. Then telephone. Then radio. The technology for television was (publicly) realized during the Great Depression. If you listen to old-time radio broadcasts from that era, they discuss the excitement around this technology. It was not until the mid 1950s, however, that TV "sets" became widely available. Before this, television programming was scant too. But, it is the way technology is released. It is a manner that seems to be a scam at its core.

If someone were to have had digital technology in the 19th century, they could have made millions, right? Imagine if that technology were ripped apart schematically and released incrementally over hundreds of years. Imagine that there are more technologically advanced species involved in this process. There would have to be. Like Star Trek though, I would imagine a species with a space-faring technology to also have an advanced consciousness...and though that's the hope, I don't see this as being clearly so, unless our own consciousness itself is an advanced simulation.

Around the same time, we get the airplane. Holy Toledo. Then it takes off as if it were all a natural progression of human events. Does it seem like the natural progression of human events? Look at all of human history and development. There is something afoot about which we have incomplete information. This pertains to physics itself, I reckon — the controlling of a population unto a purpose. Human beings then go from being able to fly, right to the computer age — all information and innovation being released as slowly as possible to maximize profit in so doing...like going from records, to cassettes, to 8-tracks, to compact discs, for example.

It seems like humanity went from shoveling horse shit to splitting the atom.

It really looks like technology from an advanced civilization was dumped onto humanity without the benefit of humanity having any real advanced knowledge - nor knowledge throughout. There's advancement for the benefit of all humankind, only by virtue of trickle-down economics? These are not advanced ethics at all, except for the purposes of exploitation. "Divide and conquer" is not exactly a new tactic — yet one that people seem especially blind to en masse.

These ideas can be viewed from the basis of logic and reason as to what has been the collective capacity of humankind unto a point. Human understanding of time has undoubtedly been deliberately effected by manipulating information unto purposes of control.

Relative History

I think my mother was attempting to groom me towards greatness, in the hopes that I would get close by social standards of the day. This is ...